... and now?

i realize that what you want is totally different from what you need. but just now, i dont want anything. i need love. i need Trevor to stay with me. i am in love Trevor. and he's everything i asked for and more. i just scared of it. like i thought the same with James. but thats ended, just out of the blue... with no reason, that really fucked me up. i just dont wanna go with that again. its was hard. i lost him and his family. and they were basically my family too, i pretty much lived at his house. but its nothing now.

i have Trevor. he's there for me. and thats really all that matters to be. and i know he love me. just it scary to know sometime. like its so much to handle. its so hard to explain.

but all i know, is i love him.