you,

you, i dont understand you anymore.
your new friends, they dont care.
rumors, drama, gossip, they feed off of it
backstabbing bitches, are your new friends.
talking shit about everyone behind their backs
which means each other, and thats you.
what happen to our friendship.

now your just a bitch!

VB...

had a pretty good week, umm going to have a relaxing night with my boyfriend.
catching up on boardwalk it is honestly such a good show, so watch it.
if you have rogers on demand, you can start from the start. then i have my volleyball tourment tomorrow. im excited and not excited at the same time. first im excited beacause i haven't played club volleyball in a year. so that fun. but i hate my team, no i hate two girls on my team. first, brittney, i dont hate her, just dislike her, she was really bitchly, but she's okay now. she kind of being fake friendly but its bearable. then there is Alyica. she goof around at practise and complains about being liberod out. well guess what, you play middle, and middles suck a passing, thereforth are liberod out. and im sorry im such a good libero. like calm your shit, you are still going to start. so im playing libero this year. and im kinda pissed off that i dont get my own libero jersey with my number 14 on it. no i get to wear the team libero jersey with the number 15. which is stupid because i ask for number 14 and my last name on it and they order me a jersey like that but as the same colour as my team..... SO FUCKING STUPID. if you didnt know, a libero wear a different coloured jersey than his/her team.

oh yeah, Trevor is living with me. its pretty good.<333333

we only have ourselves

i learned somthing great today. dont trust girls, especially "best friends." they are only a bunch of back stabbering bitches, and i'm old enough know that im better than that. so honestly, enjoy your shit life with your creeper. im on the better things now.

im thαt person who belongs neither here nor there; just floαting in between.

i'm waiting for my future to begin

sick in the summer, like really?

so yeah, the title says it all about my day,
i was sick. like who gets sick in the summer?
only me with my luck. soo it was a pretty shitty day,
i actually watched the first pokemon series on youtube.
-----------> Pokehaunter (:
yeah check that out, if you like pokemon,
and i'm continuing my loneliness without Tre.
which is sad for me, but i get to see him Friday and
i get a sleepover :P

mid summer and i missed you

holy shit. i missed you blogger:(
oh if been like a month i think. nothing really new in life even.
trevor and i are still together, yay. its going to be 10 months.
woow, thats a long ass time. but i love him. what else? so yesterday,
i meet his mommy and she pretty cool. i sent the day in TO at the eaton and
chilling with Trevor plus some of his family. i got a dress from H&M,
and it has pockets. yes a dress with pockets. its kinda my new thing i love
in my clothing. soccer is going great, got 6 goals and 4 assits, not bad, if
i do say so myself. i scored on the chipmunk twice. amazing. so rice lake is
coming up. kinda excited since i wasnt going to go but Tre is coming up for the
weekend and that should be fun. and we will have a sleepover. FINALLY, YAY!
UMMMM opps caps. ummm* friends are still invisble. but trying.
soo yeah, hopefully be back soon

love

i truly love Trevor

summer lovin'

heyyy.
i missed you.
so summer has been good so far(: i love the sun tho(:
its amazing. plus my tan is coming in so nicely.
been spending most of my time with my lovely boyfriend, Trevor(:
almost 9 months with him<3 he's my everything and more.

smile if you need to

tell whats the point of wanting something?
it may bring you happiness? love? other good emotions?
but it can also bring some sadness
when you have to wait
waiting for something you want.
you can be promise to be given it.
but most promise are left broken.

world cup(:

loving world cup(:
goo England(:

54.

so tomorrow?
its the 11th
so what?
its 8 months
8 long 8 months
i'm so happy.
i fucking love him.
here's to 8 months baby!

38557

i love my boyfriend so much.
today was honestly the best.
thank you Trevor!

maybe

maybe i like to be a mess looking for love than in love looking for meaning

Myself

cant stand my reflection

Trevor(L)

you are all i need. you are my hero.

mom

thanks for ruining my day, you stupid bitch.

i less than 3 you

I love Trevor Dias so much, he's my everything, enough said.

What Now?

i dont know what to do with my life anymore.

GGOAAALLLLLLL!

heyy, i played soccer for the first time in fucking forever. and fuck i missed it! i love it!! i played like shit at the starting. but i was nervous. but then i starting to play a bit better. i had 4 shots the first half. and then i play so much better in the second half getting a goal and an assist and ending the game with 6 shots. i still really rusty still, i need to practice alot. hopefully my lovely bf will help me.

Trust.

i love you so much. but i hate liars. and you lied to me. you talked shit about me during those two months. those two months where i tried to get you back. honestly, and you said you wanted me. no you let me look like a fool, when you were hooking with the Troll, the boring Carly and fucking other girls. im not stupid. so dont think i am, by telling me you didnt. the worst thing was that you called me a whore. and you said to your ex. wtf. bottom line i dont fully trust you anymore.

This is for you Carly!

You're fat.
You're worthless.
You're ugly.
You're a piece of shit.
You're nothing.
You're a nobody.
You're a bitch.
You're cunt.

just to sum that up. you're a fucking stupid and ugly fat cunt, who has nothing in life and will never me wanted.

Your Living Lies.

honestly, high school is just high school. its not your whole life. i'm sick of girls think it is. when high school is done what will you have?

Forget about Friday

i thought friday was amazing, well saturday's sex was so incredible. Trevor is the best. i love you! thank you for the most incredible sex i have ever felt.

Sex Was A Yes(:

last night sex was amazing. i think it was just whatever we need to. it was like really good for the both of us. thanks baby.

getting better...

grr i hate looking in the mirror to see what my body looks like

half day.

i have soo much to tell you!!

first, today was amazing with Trevor, we had a half day and after we went to my house. but first we need to get a key from my sister. so then we went home and make pancakes. fucking PANCAKES. FUCKING CHOCOLATE CHIP PANCAKES. it was sooo much fun. i have never made pancakes before but this was great. we blasted glee songs and other songs. i danced around like a loser.

but omg, i hate hooking up now. just love giving and not getting. like i was making out with Tre and things lead to stuff and whatever. i just want him happy. he enjoyed it. but i got a bit so its okays.

its not your fault

holy fuck, i had the deepest talk with Trevor. i balled my eyes out. like i knew that his family life was hard. but wow, last night on the phone was more than i thought it would be. like really. Trevor never ever went into detail about it before. he told me so much. i just cried. and that was the first time i heard him cry about his family. like he's an amazing person and he didnt deserve that. i love him so much and to heard that stuff, it honestly broke my heart. and now i understand why he doesnt like give me rough sex and is always asking if im okay. like im crying now just thinking about it again. hes my love and i never knew anything about this. i will alaways be there for him. i love him so much.

and on a happy note, we have been together for 7 months yesterday.

again...

i woulde rather have no friend than friends like yours.

Parents?

i still find it weird how my parents are different from Trevor's. they are so different, polar opposites. like yeah i fight with my parents, but who doesn't, i'm 17. its going to happen. but if i was Trevor i would flip shit. his father and step-mom cant parent. i'm sorry. i have never been so rude to anyone's rents before. here is a message between Trevor and i about his parents.


Tayler Keats April 29 at 5:00pm
i honestly wanna bitch at your family.you treat you like nothing.they honestly dont know how to parent.you should be allow to see your mother.she loves you, and makes an effort to be a good mother.like maybe your father should put an effort into being a good father.other than making you upset and feeling like shit.and he should start manning up. he's your parent, notyour step mother. she's not the boss of you.and if she wants respect, she should give you some start.thats honestly how the world works.and really blaming the baby problems on you, if not fair.actually if fucking bullshit and not very adult of her. they shouldn't be shocked that your rebelling, you can only take so much shit.

Tayler Keats April 29 at 5:00pm
i'm going to wrote this on your wall.your dad and step mom need to see it


what grown women blames her baby problems on her 17 year old son? wow, so mature. and his father doesnt have the balls to parent his own son. like the step mom calls all the shots, she's a bitch. no actually, she's a CUNT. honestly, i'm so pissed thinking about this again. and the worst thing is that they treat him like nothing and then wont let his own mother come see her son. like really? your pushing your child away. do you really want that? you're going to realize that when it to late, and he wants nothing to do with you.

Let's Fight

so the last two weeks have been shit because Trevor and i have been fighting. like we have had some huge fights lately. and its not like us at all, it nuts. i just want us to be normal again. its slowly getting there.

I Miss You.!

man, i feel so bad..
i'm so busy lately with everything.
i missed you blogger.

so in the past 9 days,
i have quit lacrossse because i have a bitch coach who needs to grow up.
almost broken up with Trevor twice.
wrote a Macbeth essay.
skipped school.
met Trevor's daddy.
Trevor tured 17.

and thats it.

life update

heyy, its been a long as while. i missed you. and so i have so much to tell you! so here is news. i'll start from the latest stuff. today, i had school and then missed Lacrosse and went tanning.

so yesterday, was Trevor's and mine's 6 month Anniversary. yay. its amazing. 6 months. and i might be meeting his parent this week. so excited and finally. i also saw GREASE! omg, it was good. it was so worth the wait.

then saturday, yup i'm going backwards. i chilled with Katie. it was good. we watched movies, and now i got her freaking out about ALIENS. ahaha. she's a loser.

friday-> i had lacrosse all day in toronto by the lake. its was freezing! it snowed, like come on. plus my coach is a stupid cunt. then coming home and chill/cuddle/spooning with my boyfriend made my day. plus we had the best sex ever. it was so passionate.

okays, now i dont rememer the order now, but my insane control freak ex boyfriend, messaged me. asking if i wanted to hangout because he can drive now. okays, here the story. this boy is nuts. it was an abusive relationship. like ask anyone. he also lives 45 mins away from me now. and he wants to drive 45 mins to just say hello. well that bullshit. i fucking hate him. i told him that. and he continued to try and talk to me and try and use a nice boy charm. its didn't work. so he's blocked from everything..

oh yeah, i hate stupid bitches who like to talk shit to my boyfriend and try to ruin my relationship with him. plus i hate seeing a troll twice as day.

so that's an update.

sick of dumb bitches

sick of lies,
sick of gossip,
sick of highschool,
sick of drama,
sick of bullshit,
sick of drama hungry girls,
sick of girls who have nothing great in life and must try and ruin mine,
sick of being nice to rude girls.

ps, grow the fuck up, your almost adult start acting like one.
and i dont drink like you girls, cause i have respect for myself.
and i live for myself, my family, my grades, my sports, and my boyfriend
not for the enjoy of talking shit, gossiping and/or starting rumors.

Hop Hop

today was a ray of sunshine, Happy Easter. Trevor cam over and spent the day with my family. we all basically goofed around in my backyard. Trevor is so good with my family, i love it. he's really amazing. he's such a family man. i would love to have kids with him. well in the future.

the cutest good night

11:54pmTrevor
but anyways:P I'm gonna head to bed so that way I can wake up and get ready to see my baby I hope you have a goodnight but don't worry about me having a good night cause I will I plan on dreaming about you:)
I know cheesy corny lol sorry but it's true:)

11:55pmTrevor
I love you babe you honestly mean the world to me Tayler :)no fucking joke:)

... and now?

i realize that what you want is totally different from what you need. but just now, i dont want anything. i need love. i need Trevor to stay with me. i am in love Trevor. and he's everything i asked for and more. i just scared of it. like i thought the same with James. but thats ended, just out of the blue... with no reason, that really fucked me up. i just dont wanna go with that again. its was hard. i lost him and his family. and they were basically my family too, i pretty much lived at his house. but its nothing now.

i have Trevor. he's there for me. and thats really all that matters to be. and i know he love me. just it scary to know sometime. like its so much to handle. its so hard to explain.

but all i know, is i love him.

Trolls

i hate trolls, plain and simple

Most Teen Girls Are Drama Hungry

wow, girls my age are ridiculious. its blog. get the fuck over it. plus you the "huge" drama trio have said worst shit about me and each other than me saying your bitches and fat. like come on. grow up. i'm sorry i hurt your feelings. grow some balls. just wait until the real world hit you right in the face. you're going to die. NO ONE IS GOING TO BABY YOU. start acting like adults. it will probly help you ALOT. i have more important things to worry about then stepping on your little toes. i just want school to be over, so i dont have to deal with this bullshit anymore. i cant stand it. so this all started because my retard friend Katie showed the drama trio my blog. honestly, i need better friend, who are mature and respect that i have a boyfriend. its fucking stupid. fuck this. its only one more year of this shit.

Stupid Friends

i'm sick of my "best friend" being a bitch. she's suppose to be my best friend but yet she's chills with a fat cunt, and two other stupid bitchs. who dont like me. she's fucking stupid. like i would always chill with people who dont like you and who you dont like. what the fuck. and this is her excuse. we dont have any classes together.. wow lame.. like really? and the fact that i chill with my lovely boyfriend. i'm sorry. i'm good enough to get a boyfriend who lives in oshawa and not a boy who lives in north dakota in amercia. ahaha the best you can get. its funny. you should try and be my best friend. or i can be a bitch. you have no idea.

Taco Bell

heyy, i have been having a great week so far. mostly thanks to Trevor, He's a sweetheart. he tries so hard to make me happy, i love it. so tomorrow, i have a half day, and we are missioning to Taco Bell. i love taco bell. yes!

<):{)>< !

soo, Trevor was amazing with my little brother. we went to the park and he played with jaxson and stuff. he's so sweet. like i kinda saw a new side to him. which i loved. and it made me fall a little bit hard for him. he's going to be a great father one day. and i finally got to go to my mall. (upper canada mall) its the best mall ever! my favourite store is there. "off the wall". i got a spring jacket. a green billabong jacket. its soo cute. and i got a simple yellow summer dress as well. it was fun. got to leave my house and stuff. and Trevor kinda cancelled on dinner....AGAIN. FUCKSAKES. this is one thing i wanted. and proper/formal date. and it would be my first. and it share it with you. oh my lady god. like come on. i said i would play for you and stuff and you cancell. i treat you like a king. i cant have one thing. whatevers. well on a happier note. this is a mexcian man <):{)><. ahahah well i love it. it makes me happy(:

A Week Later.

oh, i'm so excited! i got to finally see TREVOR! i'm so fucking happy. a week later and i finally get to see him. so he's coming over tonight. and he's helping me watching Jaxson, i'm little brother. we are taking him to the park. it should be cute.

SHORTS,SHORTS,SHORTS!

today was the first day i wore shorts in 2010, fucking sick. but i'm still missing my boyfriend, who still grounded. so i actually went out today. with Katie to the mall. i bought flip flops and new sunglasses, yay. so now, i'm going to watch the boy in striped pyjamas. i probly will cry..

so have a goodnight

Lets Fuck!

fucksakes, i need my boyfriend to stop being grounded. i cant stand it. its killing me. i need to touch him, i need to kiss him, i need to fuck him. my craving for him is growing. i hate it. I'm never like this but i need him. its all i think about.

I Wanna Be A Princess

so my march is kinda ruined. it started off with a fight with my boyfriend. then he got grounded. and i have been wanted to go out for dinner with Trevor forever now. so i have to wait until he off being grounded and i have to pay for the both of us. i just wanna be a princess for one day. i pay for everything, i go out of my way for him. i paid for his ticket. i cancel my plans to be with him. i honestly dont think i'm asking for much.

Tomorrow.

hey, i haven't written in a while. i'm sorry. been busy. friends, schoolwork, lacrosse and Trevor. i missed this though. i missed telling the world my story, but no one every cares right. but i'm excited for tomorrow. wanna know why? well i'll tell you then. its March 11. it may just be a normal day for you but it's MY 5 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY! but the sad thing is that i ask Tre what tomorrow is? and he replied with Thursday. and i didnt want to correct him.. so hopefully he clues in.

omg he broke my coral boob shirt during SEX! I can't even fix it. and i just buy it a month ago. so that kinda sucks. but since we are on the topic of SEX. I wanna say that i hate when Tre tell me that he doesn't please me. HELLO! I think i would know if you did or not. and the answer is YES, DO! I honestly dont know what the boy is thinking. i'm one to laying there hoping you dont get bored of me.

well then thats was interesting.. thanks and byes.

F to the U

honestly, my mother is bitch. she called me fat again. and now i feel like shit and i'm crying. its not fair.

Bowws

so i kinda really like Skateboarding. so now i can actually ride the board. here come the tricks... kinda. it will take a while. so good luck to me. but Trevor is a good teacher. and today i had an amazing day with Trevor. pretty much missoned around Oshawa. superstore area, to my house to baskin robins, to bulk barn, to wendy's, to parking lot. but whatevers. we laughed and had some good old fun. so now, i was trying to do some english homework but fuck you MACBETH! so now i'm writing this and watching skate vids on outube. which has become my new favoursite hobby.

Vampire Bites.

yay, its been a good start to the weekend. next night, i had Trevor over and we had a cute night. we both almost passed out on the couch. then somehow i have bite marks on my neck. so i found out that I'm kinky then i thought. i got some issues ahah. and so i wake up this morning and pancakes/french toast was being made. oh my lady god! i love my life!! then i got dressed to and went to soccer sign up! yeah, that's i'm playing soccer again. i missed it. and like last summer i didn't play and did stupid shit but i'm going to be good this summer. i'm so excited but the only thing is i probably suck now. good thing i have Trevor to help me out. well then i'm going to play some wii fit. so byes

When The Silence Is Listening

i honestly, don't know what to write about today... lets start with what's new, i guess. i have more hickies, thanks Trevor. and that's about it. like school is boring. i have a presentation tomorrow with my partner and he did shit. um.. i kinda wanna do a dinner date with Trevor. i was be my first dinner date. oh la la! like James always promised me but that never happened because the money he made from his job went to weed. whatever. I'll have to wait and see with Trevor. its kinda lame. but i love simple corny romantics things. oh my lady god. so i wanna learn to skateboard. ahha so Trevor promised me that he teach me. it should be interesting... like yesterday, i have learn to push, but i was holding on to his hand for dear life.

Won't Walk Away, But She Won't Look Back

so when should i meet Trevor's parents? a few weeks into it, maybe at 1 months, or most likely 3 months? no, trying still waiting... and its been 5 months together. like he hasn't mention anything about meeting his parents and he has meet mines. but i don't wanna push it.. yet i honestly want to meet them. it makes me feel like I'm not up to his parents standard and or that he's embarrassed to invite me to meet them. i don't know what's going on. i wanna cry sometimes though. like what's wrong with me? like parents love me. past boyfriends and all my friends. so i really don't know what's going on. well what do i do? maybe i don't say anything and just wait for him to get over this parent phobia.

Trevor is My Superman.

heyy, so my mini vacation was fun. my mother bought me a real couch purse. which i have been asking for months for. and i finally got it. and that was the best part. my mother told me that i need to work out. what the fuck?! you tell me this when I'm loving my body for the first time in my life because of my boyfriend. Grr Mother. that was a bitch move. you gave me an emotional breakdown. thank mother fucking lady god, that Trevor came helped me pick up my pieces. oh how i love that boy. honestly that boy is my hero. he saves me all the time. and is always there to put a big smile on my face. thank you so much baby. you're so amazingly incredible.

Ready For Some Time Away.

yesterday, i spend a nice relaxing night with Trevor, hes quite cute. and its the last time, i see him until Tuesday. and i miss him already. i have no commutations with him all weekend. that's boy needs a cell phone. anyways i'm going away with my family to Great Wolf Lodge. which should be fun. there's shopping and a indoor waterpark. but i just got my period.. it fucking sucks. so now my stomach is cramping. it hurts so much. i'll live though.but i wont be blogging for a few days.

byes

It's Called Being Nice not Flirting.

wow, some people these days seriously need to understand the meaning of fuck off. I'm not flirting with Jordan. He's my friend, i have own him since i was 9. and I'm not interest. so you stupid fat bitch, fuck off. its called being nice not flirting. I'm happy with my relationship with Trevor, so why would i even try and flirt? i love Trevor with all my heart. so honestly mind your own business. like its not my fault your life is so boring and shitty, that you must try and wreck mines. you seriously have more important things to think about than my assigned partner and i talking. like I'm sorry if I'm coming off as mean or rude. but you fucking bitch are trying to ruining/come between my incredible relationship. you seriously have to much time on your hands. so go find a guy who's fetish is fat girl because even fat people can get laid. and i honestly thought fat people were supposed to be jolly not fucking worthless bitches.

Rumors Are Started From Those Who Have Nothing.

heyy, so i wanna know why people like saying shit that's untrue to try and ruin my relationship. so here's the story before that sentence. so I'm my history class there is a boy who flirts with me and Trevor doesn't like it at all. i dint like it either but I'm not rude and telling him to fuck off every minute. do i said it when he's taking it too far. so he sits behind me and my friends sit on the other side of the class. so I'm kinda screwed. like i don't really talk to the people who sit near me, so I'm left talking to the boy. and today, my teacher thought it would be great if the boy and i were partners for this project we are starting. thanks teach. so that's the background story in my overall story. so at lunch today, i see this other Taylor talking to my boyfriend sercetly, which is never a good sign. so i sat with my best friend Katie and we kinda talk about it. then we went back to see the rest of our friends. and Trevor wont look at me or talk to me. so i was pissed because i know she must of said something about me. honestly, i like Taylor, she's a nice person but she need to mind her business like i don't bother with her boyfriend and her. but anyways, back to the story, i stormed off crying. i passed my friend Tyler and he asked me what's wrong? and i told him what happened. and then we saw Trevor walk by. so Tyler told him he need to fix it, blah blah. then it was just Trevor and i walking. in silence. so i turn to him and say what's going on? and he replies with, why cant you be honest with me? what the fuck! he's like someone told me that you were flirting with *boy from History*. i flipped shit! i started crying and swearing and yelling. like seriously, i was fucking pissed. i was like i love you and you know i don't have some interest in this boy, blah blah blah. like fuck you, you already believe them. so i have never been so mad in my life. so we talked in over and now we are fine! but i find to class was texting my best friend Katie and she told me that Carly is the one who told Taylor. Carly in my History. and honestly i fucking hate this girl. like she's a real bitch. like she's the kind of girl who say she's doesn't like Drama yet, is the one starting it. honestly, i think she's just jealous because I'm really Happy with my life right now and her life suck dirty asshole. so here's my message fuck off you fat cunt, keep you bullshit to yourself because no one needs to hear your drama. and i know that sounds mean but i don't care right now. your cow and need to get laid and then maybe you'll not be so stuck up.

My Heart Plus Your Heart

heyy world. so i had a great day. even through i looked like crap. i watched basketball with my baby, Trevor and it was fun. i found a new liking to indie techno music. i know, i have no life. YouTube teaches me to learn to like new music and different artists. i love European bands/singers. oh my goodness. i honestly love how they dress. I'm so jealous. so its being snowing here. but i just wanna say fuck you snow. i need some summer time sunshine! so that's about it today. sorry, its boring but whatevers.

ps i love you Trevor *baby voice*

Grown Men, Who Think They Are Hot Shit.

so night i went to watch my little brother who was playing my cousin. so i watched but i stayed on my brother's side of the rink cause i hate my uncle who yells all game and its funny because he doesn't know the game of hockey that well. plus he's the most self-centered person you'll never met. so i was play fighting with his daughter. but so she was taking it a little to seriously. but we both had each other's hair in each other's hands. then out of no one where i'm stupid uncle came into it:

U *keep your fucking hands of my daughter*
T *wow, she started it*
U *do you want me to smash your fucking head off the ground*
T *Bill, i would like to you see try*
U *fuck off*

wow! honestly, how old are you? well grow the fuck up. seriously you like almost 40 and i'm 17!! do you feel good about yourself by acting all tough to a 17 year old girl? well here's so words for Bill. and if you'r going to say i'm hiding behind a computer. i will say it to your face because we are the same height, about 5'7 ish? so firstly, grow the fuck up. secondly, your NOT hot shit, you should be embarrassing for threating a teenager in public with people seeing how much of a fucking dumbass you are. you kids AREN'T hot shit either and maybe you should teach them some manners because obviiously you parenting skills aren't working. maybe you should teach you mother with some respect too, like she is your mother, the person who bought you into this world, but she probly realize what a mistake that was. there is probly more but why waste my life bitching about some low life like you Bill.

PS. cut you son's hair less you actually want him to look like a girl.


peace mother fucker!

The Most Amazing Boyfriend.

Trevor Dias February 22 at 8:25pm

so I was sitting in my room all alone quiet thinking to myself about how I made you cry today once again made the one I love cry I hate it and when I was thinking ,beating myself up about this I looked down at my hand and your hand writing saying I love you was on my hand still and that moment just made me smile and made me think how happy I am with you in my life there are only few things that make me happy in life and make me keep going music some of my family skateboarding and you and you just make me so happy like something as simple as you writing I love you on my hand just made me think positivlyI know at times we get into arguments and we walk from each other and I'm sorry about that but I just don't think I can be without you you have done many things for me and one of them is changing my perspective on life and helping me fall in love and I honestly can't thank you enough for doing that for meand the thing is I feel I don't do enough for you like all I do is take your money and make you cry and it honestly makes me feel like shit I just hope you can forgive me for the things I've done and I can't promise I won't make anymistakes in the future cause no ones can but I promise I will try harder to no make as many mistakes

I love you Tayler Keats

I Am As Vain As I Allow

its Sunday, the most boring day in the week. so its normally a lazy day for me. pretty much watch the Olympics and sitting around in my pjs on my laptop with the stupid enter key and i think I'm getting a cold, my stomach hurts and my head is pounding. what a great Sunday. and I'm pretty much listening to a few song and putting them on repeat.

*Dancing with Tears in my eyes- Kesha*
*Never Forget You- The Noisettes*
*Oshawa State of Mind- Stephen Flynn*
*Josey- Hey Monday*

so yeah i have no life. so I'm going to continuing doing nothing.. just wait until my mommy comes home to take me tanning. yes i know what you're thinking *fake&bake* well shut up. I'm naturally have olive coloured skin. and Trevor is darker than me. and that's so weird because I'm normally the darkest one get of my friends and he makes me feel so pasty! i hate it. i honestly think women from the Latin culture are the most beautiful in the world. tanned and curvaceous. i don't know that's just what i think. and to be honest with you, I'm alot darker in the summer. oh my goddess. summer. i can not wait until summer. i wasted last summer on ... stuff. but this summer will be so amazing! i just love summer. cuter clothing, sunglasses *i need new ones*, bathing suit, swimming. summer is *bowws*, that's you Trevor and Mathew. its seriously the stupidest word ever. just letting you know. so this is my 6 post, and i like blogging. it kinda fun and a good way to get things off your chest and I'm trying to get my best friend Katie to start one but she's lame.oh yeah, my other friend Justin keeps telling me to blog about him. so here's my shout out to Justin. i have own him since grade 7 and he's a pretty funny kid. he was in my tech class last year, which was favourite class expect from a boy trying to touch me.. Justin is all so in my history class but so is that other boy. that's drama. Justin sits on the other side of the class room, so we always look at each other with silly faces.

My Hearts on Fire.

so i was just with my boyfriend and i hadn't a totally breakdown in front of him. and he really hates to see me cry but i don't think he understand where I'm coming from. I'm his first serious girlfriend and he's second serious boyfriend. so i should probably tell you about the first boy. James, well i thought he was amazing and i did love me. we went through a shit load of drama. he broke up with me three times when we dated. the first time was because his friend told him. the second time was the same. and the third, which kinda really ended it was because i never really got a straight answer, he honestly hurt me so much. i didn't talk to anyone for weeks. so during our break periods, he would told while laying in bed with me, he doesn't know why he broke up with the most amazing girl he has ever met. and didn't ask me back out. i spend almost everyday at his house. his mother would always ask if we were dating again. i would sleep over at his house alot throughout the summer. he almost destroyed me when he broke up with me. the date it happened we both cried and he still kissed me. honestly, i have never been so confused in my life. and like there were other problems like smoking and weed. and yeah, i didn't like him doing that at all. but the emotional pain was unbearable. so now Trevor is the opposite of James, he's good guy with a heart of gold. and i do love him alot. and I'm not saying he's going to hurt me like James but my heart if questioning. its afraid of getting hurt again and honestly, i don't know if i could handle it. so i break down in front of him. and tried to explain the feeling. i just don't he understood where i was coming from. maybe I'm just under thinking it. which i do alot... i don't know. but what i do know is that i wanna be with Trevor for a long time. he's the right to my left. wow cheesy but i don't care right now.


I Love You Trevor <3

Who I Am, Is Not Who I Wanna Be, I'm Such A Tragedy.

fuck, pressure to be perfect. honestly, i hate it so much. its depressing how it affects the lives of girls around the whole. i do fall victim to it too. like i have an average/ athletic/ curvaceous body type. and for the most i love my body. but the ideal body is super skin. well fuck off, I'm not that. and either is most of the world. beauty doesn't have just one form. it has many definitions, thank you very much. everyone has imperfections and they shouldn't be judge for them. but these imperfections are beautiful, they create a variety of beauty. I'm honestly think people should celebrate their unique beauty because i believe they should wake up everyone should wake up every morning feel beautiful and pretty and perfect in their own way and have the confidence to smile and have an amazing day everyday without judgement and feeling like shit or worthless. my biggest role models are Tyra Banks and Marilyn Monroe. Tyra believes in unique beauty and Marilyn was curvaceous when everyone else was a stick and is seen an a icon. when i gets my first tattoo is going to be a quote from Marylin *Imperfection is Beauty* its honestly the much amazing thing i have ever heard. and it something to live be. and i have been thinking of getting it done for like forever now. i want it so badly.

this is the definition of perfect: *conforming absolutely to the description or definition of an ideal type/entirely without any flaws, defects, or shortcomings/accurate, exact, or correct in every detail*
well, I'm going to tell you what i feel is the true definition of perfect: *being happy with yourself/ live to your own personal standards/ accepting your imperfections*

so honestly i think everyone is beautiful or pretty or gorgeous. (:

Heart Attack.

hello hello, so i honestly hate boys who flirt/trying to get with me/say shit about my boyfriend to my face. like seriously, i have an amazing boyfriend and have no fucking interested in you at all. so stop touching me in class or texting me or asking to hangout. two words. FUCK OFF! anyways, i wanna talk about relationships. like i think my relationship with Trevor is great. but i see couples having massive fights in public. i think that's embarrassing and your business just be your business and the world shouldn't know. like i know this couple, fights alot at school. like from the outside looking in, i think it going downhill and he should haven't have taking her back. like i think when it gets to that point, its over. also i hate when people talk to me about their relationship problems, like i don't care, I'm sorry but i don't and i also don't think it's my business too. but then i don't like when people overly talk about their relationship. example, * ____ and i are so in love. we are going to get married. ____ and i did this last weekend. he/she is the best lover ever. blah blah blah* and they say the same thing everyday... oh god. shut up. no one cares. just be like our relationship is going good. its that simple.

After The Clean Up.

oh wow(:

i just washed a substance off my wall and couch. thanks to Trevor, but it was all in good fun. ahaha, anyways, just had the boyfriend over, he's always fun. he's amazing to be around. just so incredible. the only boy to really just steal my heart. and gives me adorable little hickies, thanks baby xo. so school today, was boring. well school is always boring but it was like really boring today. nothing exciting. like in history, we did some cave drawing art and was asked if i was Asian by my teacher. NO, I'm not Asian. I'm English and Austrian and maybe some Native American. and maybe that's the reason i tan so well.. i love being tanned, its better than being pasty.fuck, i just remembered i have English, fuck you Macbeth. honestly, i don't wanna read it. its so hard to understand. here's an idea, lets read a book with modern English. *good idea Tayler*

well until another day. byes(;

I Hate Chipmunks (:

so heyy people in the world of Internet, here's a little back ground check on me(; one day, which was today of all day, a great idea came to me. *i should start a blog* and this is the begins of my great impact on the blogging world. so I'm pretty normal girl, well its what i would call normal for myself. I'm rough & tough with some girlie in there too. and honestly, i should give a f**k about a lot. like girls who live off of drama (grow up) but that's a story for another day. oh yeah most importantly, i hate girls who look like chipmunks, just saying. all I'm saying in don't be a bitch. wow, that's a lot of negative... but i do have many positive points in my life. and right off the bat, wow that was corny... anyways yeah, oh i have a great boyfriend, named Trevor, he's Portuguese, so he's dam sexy (: but he's a sweetheart. our relationship is going strong(: a lot stronger then that one with the pot head. well, i think I'm pretty much done with this blog. PS my advice is to listen this to this song *Back of my Hand - Down with Webster*

*lost blog virginity*